厕所情缘

记得小时候，大概10岁吧，我把自己反锁在教堂的厕所里。没有感觉害怕，可是却偷偷掉泪，想到自己可能没有机会看到弟弟长大，就觉得有点可惜。厕所里只有一盏黄灯，我就坐在马桶上干等。最后，门开了，妈妈站在外面。我得救了。

十年后，我在一间小小的公司industrial training。刚刚开始做工的时候，觉得非常的不习惯。尤其当老板没给工作的时候，真的闷得发慌。有时，就走进厕所，门关上，坐在马桶上，闭上眼睛，偷偷和周公约会。十分钟后才出来继续发慌。

后来，毕业了，第一份工把我分派到外地。工作非常的压力。到了不能承担的时候，就会赶紧的跑进厕所，偷偷在里面哭泣。当作是一种发泄。从那次后，我就常常跑到厕所里哭。我最讨厌在别人面前哭。我觉得如果在别人面前哭，是一种认输的行为。所以，厕所成了我的避难所，马桶是在我伤心的时候最好的朋友。

当然，我不想永远的抱着马桶哭。到了某个阶段，某个时候，当你找到了对的肩膀，马桶就会成为你的第二选择。

你快乐吗？

看过朋友写过的一句话：谁说的人一定要快乐，好像快乐由得人选。 是歌词吗？觉得是一句让人深思的话。

蛮悲的吧？

回想以前，自己何尝不是这样想？记得我可以和我最好的朋友抱怨天南地北- 从工作，生活，情人，一切一切我都能抱怨个不停。日子久了，发现不管我怎么抱怨，一切还是一样。久而久之，慢慢地接受了自己身旁的一切。一天，幕然回首，发现自己其实很幸运拥有现在所有的一切，开始觉得感恩。

人，是贪心的动物。往往我们不快乐的时候，都是因为自己不懂得知足。若我们可以对我们所拥有的一切感到满足，我想，我们大家都会是开心，快乐的。

古人说，知足常乐。我相信快乐是可以让人选的。你相信吗？

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I miss all of you!

Have been in Penang for almost 6 months. A lot of friends asking me how I am doing here.

Truthly speaking, I think I prefer Penang more than KL. Traffic is lesser, places are nearer, food is cheaper, etc etc. Shopping in Penang is not as good as KL, but I am getting used to it as I don't really shop. However, I really miss my dearest zi muis and my CDC gang in KL. Besides, I also miss my family a lot since I am now even much further away from them. These are the main things that I have been missing all these while.

I was browsing through some of the old pics that I have in this laptop. Looking at those pics make me miss them even more. Always think that Friends are valuable in our lives, esp when we have been through so much together. I miss the hang out at cafes till late night, the gossiping sessions before sleep, the ghost movie sessions, the eating sessions, the karaoke sessions, etc etc.

Anyway, C'est La Vie! Like a friend said, life is like a flow of river stream. There's no where that we can cling on for forever. Everyone has to move on for their future, for their planning, for a better ones. Sometimes I still feel sad thinking back about all the good times that we had. I hope one day I can get over it, but friends, if you're reading this, you know I am talking about you and I can tell you, I really miss you a lot. I know all of us are busy at work, but please do drop me a mail so that we still know all our whereabouts.

Muaks.. All the best to my zi muis, my ex-housemates and my CDC gang. I really really miss you guys.....

About ME!

I like to relate myself to the pooh bear, especially when we're having the same name. I also like to call myself penguin, as someone said before I used to walk like a penguin, but I believe I have improved a lot in this aspect.

From the usual comments around me, friends have been knowing me as the happy go lucky kind of person. I guess this is the profile that I portrait to the others. I like to laugh, I believe it's a good way to release stress. Also, I like to talk a lot. I can tell people all about me, from the stories when I was born, until the stories of my youngest brother, cousins, nephews and nieces. Friends used to ask me before if I ever get angry, of course I do. But I think no one will want to come near me when I am really angry. *blush*. I like to be transparent to the others, and yet, there's some hidden things about me that I wouldn't want anyone to know about it.

Looks can be deceiving, so come and know me more before you conclude anything about me. *wink*...